In September, I wrote a post about things I had learned from guys I’ve gone on dates with called Finding Myself in Mr. Wrong.
Here we are a few months later, after deleting all 5 dating apps off of my phone, and I have learned many more lessons about life and myself.
I think I’m going to make this a weekly thing. It’s a great thing to do to unwind at the end of a long week.
Stupid, pointless questions. But they distract my thoughts so maybe they aren’t pointless.
Here we go.
Three months doesn’t seem like a long time, in theory. In reality, once you wait for it to pass, it can feel like an infinity.
Really, it’s a quarter of a year. 25% or however you want to look at it.
Tonight, I found so many parallels to this day three months ago. A relatively typical school day, followed by a drive home to my hometown. I drove down the same road. This time, I was alone, and this time, I did not cry. I don’t remember who I was three months ago. That thought scares me. That thought empowers me. I looked at this day not in the sense of “where do we go from here?” but more so as “you can breathe now.” In my head, that sounds so awful; as if I’m waiting for something to be over, or like it was three months of pulling off a bandaid.
I waited for change. Change in myself. Change in him. Change in us. I saw change in all three aspects. Perhaps not as planned, but when does anything go according to plan?
I have learned to stand on my own two feet and stay grounded in them. I learned to walk before I run and look before I leap (as cliché as that sounds). I learned which friends would always have my back and which friends could press the “unfollow” or “delete” button and never look back. I learned a lot about myself: some good, some not so good. One of the biggest things I think I learned was to take chances because life doesn’t wait for us. I won’t be rushing into anything anytime soon, despite my satirical (yet mostly true) tweets about the single life (aka Tinder).
So cheers to the past three months and the person I was, and cheers to the person I am proud to be and who isn’t looking back.